you say you're already neutral. actually, i don't believe it. to you she's a perfect friend. she's completely loyal, every word she says is like a word from the bible. every word i say is crap. is a cover-up of my heinous sin. the truth stares you blatantly in the face. yet you refuse to acknowledge it. cos you still can't ditch the image that she is perfect.i still can't convince you that i have nothing to do with this, because my words have no power to uproot her position in your life.

whatever.
i am resigned.
i am resigned to the fact that i look like a terrorist and will be stopped at every airport custom to have my bag checked.
i am resigned to the fact that i will never be regarded as a true friend.
i am resigned to the fact that i am the involuntary SCAPEGOAT MANAGER of a certain VERY NICE PERSON I SHALL NOT NAME LEST IT BECOME "BITCHING ABOUT HER".


i didn't do anything wrong. i am perfectly at peace with myself.

scribbled
11:59 PM